One BIG Leap!!!

Contemplating as I do this Dream Warrior had A Brilliant Thought!



"It's TIME!!!"


It's TIME, now....NOW!!!! Why wait another minute. So I didn't. I immediately got out of bed (for that is one of my best thinking zones AND it was the middle of the night) ... I went outside under the blanket of the heavens, the universe, the milky way and the entire beauty of the eve...I chose a flat surface...I bent my knees and I jumped as far as I could...landed and stretched upwards...landed right into My Promised Land.


The leading up to this point has been SO VERY timely.


From last Monday I experienced what seemed low but what actually WAS the meeting point of this particular walk with God.


I was raw.

Raw is necessary.


I was literally the raw lump of clay. I had FINALLY broken off of the rock that I had chosen to cling to. I felt like I fell and crumbled. The only place I felt somewhat secure was in a warm tub of water and as I soaked and spoke to my closest friend over the phone I heard myself speaking from the depths of my heart. My true soul speaking, crying and weeping ... bleeding out my dream and how much I was ready to begin and when and when and WHEN??? Lord....when???


I found myself referring to the Israelites in the desert crossing over to their promised land...the land that was theirs to claim...God GAVE them this. And how when they actually were at the edge of it they frightened themselves and disbelieved it was possible and they NEVER GOT TO GO IN!!!! They wandered the desert until they just faded away.


I spoke of how I wanted to be like Caleb and Joshua and BELIEVE THAT I CAN INDEED GO IN, I CAN INDEED CLAIM THIS PROMISE...I simply believe that God has placed this dream in my heart AND IT IS TIME and I am simply waiting to hear His voice say... "Now."


(This is the story so on point with my journey. Numbers 13:26 - 33 and 14:24)


I knew that night I wasn't to make any decisions EXCEPT the decision to TRUST. Wearily and exhausted...I went to bed.

The next day I chose to give myself a break. I picked up a package a friend mailed, took myself out to breakfast and found I had received my absolute favorite treat...a bottle of bubbly Veuve Clicquot!!! (and a fabulous carrying case!)...oh and just ... "because"...Thanks Janet!

What a gift!


The next day was Wednesday and this IS my much needed studio day...a day free from job. I was ready! I had a coffee with a friend and spoke of all that had "been" in the past few days. We both agreed that this gift I had received from such a dear friend was also a gift from God to celebrate My Life RIGHT NOW.

And so I did.It was an acceptance that indeed I am doing fabulously, living a dream life, blessed beyond even my wildest imagination. I am surrounded by amazing people, true friends, loving family...I am living IN Paradise....I AM blessed....INDEED!!!

I no longer need to be a warrior for I have fulfilled the battle of my Self. I have fought hard and strong the battle of reaching and reaching and I HAVE WON!!!

The prize is with me and in me and is me!

I AM TRULY LIVING MY DREAM!!! It's not even a dream anymore...it just IS!!!

Each moment, each step, each interaction IS exactly on point...even the ones that may "seem" to be questionable are on point...just think of all I have learned!

My current job as a manager (hee hee I just had a typo and spelled that mamager which IS exactly what it is) well EVERYTHING I AM doing, learning, dealing with IS SO VALID FOR MY COMPANY...brilliant training, brilliant fine tuning and such a blessing.


It's not about "when" I leave this j.o.b. ...for that is inevitable...it's not even a question...but the value I am receiving in ALL aspects of my life IS SO VALUABLE!!!


Then last night, Saturday eve, while laying and thinking, and talking with God just grateful for the week and the closeness and blessings...I heard Him...

"Now."

SO I AM IN!!!

Dream realized!

 FULL-ON...and what a Wonderful World I have inherited.

 Thank You Lord!

Les Hap's

Hap's....things happening for a reason.


Seems every time "lately" that I have some thought of clarity a plane or helicopter immediately flies over my house/head. Interesting. (well at least the past two days of thoughts and clarity/the past two thoughts!)


I have just finished an amazing week of boundary crossing, creative processing, trust, and receiving, acceptance and believing, hands up in the air, knowing that ALL is abundantly on point.


I am walking my path.


My time lately has been spent fine tuning the dream that is my life. Preparing and planning with thoughtfulness, care and lots of prayer.


And what has come of all of this???


Well a Master Plan of strategy, very clear, very dear, very near.


I am learning to trust and to react from my heart and not my emotions (as much). For example,: though I have had some incredibly tough weeks (re: j.o.b) and have wanted to flee immediately I am now breathing into the idea of leaving still BUT on my own terms and not out of panic.


SO I have created and adjusted my "way" of living and my budget to meet the goals I have and set me free in a way that gives my business a running start and chance to soar and succeed. As I have done this I find myself twee-king my original plans...and what are original plans? Just like a canvas with paint I am adding layers and layers to the masterpiece that is My Life.


I have re kindled a love that is myself and my island...Maui is so incredibly beautiful and I have established a gorgeous life here and am now including this in the bigger picture. Rather than pack up and leave for a year "or so", I can see myself leaving for a 3 month journey. Perhaps I sublet or even house trade while I am off. Maui is a great poker chip to have, it is desirable as a location and mi casa is amazing SO rather than give it up I choose to use it to my heart's delight.


In Hat-land my creativity is pouring gracefully and abundantly. New designs, new fabrics, new clients, new website (almost complete).

the latest...Poppy!

I am a hat maker, born and bred.


SO I'd say that my latest hap's are happening and my focus is on continually clarifying, defining, removing obstacles, accepting what simply is, trusting myself, trusting God, watching for miracles, opening my heart, letting words that do not serve me go right through my ear and out the other WITHOUT stopping for contemplation (biggest challenge I am currently working on)...so unnecessary...letting words that are helpful, encouraging, or guiding go through one ear AND STOP to be used with in me, re adjusting my lifestyle to meet the lifestyle I desire and the enjoyment of the peaceful quiet moments...just like the one right now.


Much love fellow dream warriors!

here and now

       

Reflecting on much.


An encore tonight that was truly such a blessing in multiple ways. Firstly, on my emotional roller coaster I have felt I am in a daze and have been for quite a while...like ALL of Spring! Blissful, intense, dreaming forward so much that I am not sure I have even been present at all.

grounding. for a bit. centering.

Finding my balance for this particular set is huge...or rather has been. It's been absolutely perfect and yet truthfully I have been so far ahead I am not sure I have even enjoyed it for the amazingness it has been.

I have been dreaming of having my year on Le Grand Adventure be a sabbatical where I simply spend my time studying and learning and not having to worry about basics and j.o.b.s...but maybe...I ought to take a sabbatical from My Self.

Give my brain a sabbatical.

Kind of brilliant don't you think?! I mean really!

m.i.a...nope!

So yes I have been missing a bit but that was due to computer meltdowns...gracefully back up and running.

3 days left in the Successathon of brilliance!

How many hats DID this hatter make in 60 days????

Telling on Thursday!

For now I am happy to report that I have had the most brilliant Spring ever and the present is amazing and the future outstanding!

Hoorah!

le Chapeaux of Courage

Coco and I burning the late nite early a.m. oil...and My Hat of Courage...the first of a few I feel. Hooray!!! Sweet Dreams!!!

Completing a retreat I did for myself this past weekend - I wasn't sure quite what I was to get from it a but in the end I got EXACTLY what I needed most of all- C0URAGE! Highly recommended taking time out for Yourself to dig a little deeper into the nourishing, nurturing, and sometimes uncomfortable parts that really are Your Strengths!!

30 DAYS!!!

Today is Day 30!!!

How amazing this is!!!

And what has been accomplished???

Well my goal was how many hats will a hatter hat in 60 days?
The answer: I will tell you in 60 days!

Another question: How many amazing Epiphany's will a soul have in 30 days?

Endless!!!

I have indeed embarked on a journey I had only dreamed of...I had hoped for yet wasn't truly sure it would ever actually happen.

It has.

I am dancing with a partner that is dear to me.
The dance is familiar yet new.

More and more layers have been peeled back and with this deep understanding of who I am and why I have been stuck.

I have the root in my hands and while I don't want to just rip it up (for I know likely that will tear the root and it will still be there) I push back the earth around it deeper and deeper holding strong what has held me for all these numerous years.

The root is deep but Gods love for me is much more deep... endless.

My walk with God is strong. His hand embraces mine and when I seem shaky and want to let go of this root of pain I feel His touch on my shoulder and I am not afraid. I can... I will... I continue to unearth what needs to be let go.

So in the past 30 days I have found myself in love, trusting myself, trusting G0D, knowing I am exceptionally fine, happy, organized, ready, fully supplied, bursting with creativity, ready to soar, feeling more gorgeous than ever, enjoying the best passion of my life so far, laughing endlessly, feeling at peace, scared to take a leap BUT taking the leap anyways and feeling embraced, joyous, centered, content.

I'd say that is quite successful!

And several hats have been designed!

But it's N0T about the hats!

Turns out I am designing my entire life currently!


I AM SUCH A GREAT DESIGNER!!!! (a talent G0D gave Me!)

xoxoxo

thank Y0U for joining me on this journey

What a ride!!!